Middle of the night feeding- not the baby!!:)

So here it is after 12 and I can not sleep.. call it the exercise or caffiene but this lady is shoveling cookies and coke down!! Burgundy said something that I had to write before I forgot- I had just got done mopping the floors and she could see that they were wet.. I told her to be careful they were slippery.. so I go about my business and put some eye drops in my eyes and she looked at me and said mommy are your eyes slippery!! I got a kick out of that:)

So I joined the church choir tonight! Big step for this shy one!! It was a ton of fun and it gives me that extra boost before sunday!! I needed that. My mission now- to find a jewel inspired shirt and some black slacks that actually fit!! Well I had better get off here I just didn't want to forget that little Burgundy-ism!! night all!!

Burgundy Rose

Burgundy Rose turns 3!!!

So my little girl Burgundy Rose turned 3 on saturday! The day was a little surreal for me- the day started with her getting to sleep in.. then to mommys to get her "curls" and "made-up" toddler for- her hair being curled, blush and lip gloss:) She was also sprayed with about 20 gallons of hairspray( that will come into the story a little later)  Burgundy has super straight thin hair- which is competely opposite what I have so I have no idea what to do with it sometimes!! Anyway her party was at jumpzone( and indoor inflatables building) which is the absolute perfect place for a 3 year olds party!! We had to make a stop to wal-mart( from Bentonville wal-mart has to show up in my post:) to get her cake:) it was a two tier cake with all the disney princesses on it- she adored it.. or so I thought- we got to the bakery to pick it up and they had a toy story cake in the display case at the top of her lungs " I want the toy story cake!!" * blushing and embarrassed I said yep I'm picking up the "toy story" cake wink wink... she didn't remember that cake at all once she was at the party;) yes!!! of course my little princess was fashionably late:) Well heres where the hairspray comes in- they bounce first so an hour and a half of bouncing then party.. in my mind they should do it the other way so that mommy and daddy and family can get cute pics first but no.. I got sweaty beat red faced kids:( oh well!! Once we got in the room we had 30 mins for pizza, cake, and presents! I felt rushed and of course every toy she wanted to open and see first... yeah that didn't happen;)  I basically threw bags at her and daddy quickly swept them away!! it was very nice she got a ton of special presents!!! I will post pics probably tom:) Once we got home my living room was a disaster!!!! and stayed that way the remainder of then night!! We had a special spaghetti dinner- her request and then off to watch a barbie movie then bed!! It was one long day!!!!
 During the course of the day poor Tynison didn't geet much mommy time so tom baby boy I am all yours:) * Burgundy will be busy playing with her new toys:)
 I apparently woke up at some point last night telling my husband that we were not going to be going to church.... once I was awake and present in mind and body (9am) I hopped up and started getting ready I go downstairs and tell Jason yep we're going- poor guy thought he got out of it;) dropped Burgundy off at her queens* jasons mom i s her queen;)( she hates daycare and does terrible so we always try to leave her with a grand parent) then I came home and got Jason and Tynison... the message was wonderful and has me very excited for the next 4 weeks! its a 5 weeks series titled are we in the end of times... very wonderful and always a great way to start my week- I really honestly believe that if I miss church on sunday the entire week is doomed... it;s so uplifting- not to mention its our kid free time to share with the Lord!! win-win!! We usually go grocery shopping after church and today was no different- we shopped then went to BBQ at queens:) it was yummy and I am pretty sure I have the most talented husband when it comes to cooking:) I had a special moment at church while we were singing and listening to the message- it talked about a break down in relations- I looked over and realized how lucky I really am- we have our ups and downs.. but Jason really works hard to take care of us- he always makes sure I have cookies and a full tummy- he always makes time for both Burgundy and Tynison after working with hundreds of kids everyday! He really is a marvelous man and I am VERY lucky!! our " relations" are great:) Jason Randall I love you! Throughout the weekend Burgundy let us in on her corky cute side a bit- my favorite quotes f the weekend went a little like this.... tynison was in the bath and Burgundy was helping wash him he started to cry and Burgundy said" its ok bubba- use your words!" that girl needs to take her own advice:0 haha... then today Jasons little sister was going to wm with her soon to be step dad and Burgundy wanted to go- I said Burgundy Calvin doesnt have a carseat in his car- her response - mommy has one!!! smarty pants!! and lastly she-was babbling being Burg and I kinda muttered a laugh she looked at me and said 'mommy youre killing me!" WHAT??!! haha.. I love my little princess and happy birthday my wonderful sassy pants- you are growing into an amazing little girl and I look forward to seeing what this next year holds!!!



(sorry about the typos and such - its 12 and the lights are all off... haha)

My wish ...

Saturday July 09th my little girl will be 3 years old!! How did this happen?! My birthday song for her this year is My Wish by Rascal Flatts- you tube it..!! It brings tears to my eyes everytime I hear it!!

just a few days old!!

two sides to every coin..

I just posted something from my POV.. Jason might have a completely different view... lets just say I did warn him!!

Build me up buttercup...( disclaimer: its very long its a vent)

I have a tendency to build "things" "events" up so much that when that moment actually gets here no matter how good or how bad it is it ALWAYS fails in comparison:(  July is one of my favorite months of the year, seems like most great things happen to me in july:) I love the family, food, freedom, and of course fireworks:). I have only ever missed 2 fourth of july fireworks shows in my life. Once I was in south dakota and there wasn't a show for 300 miles.. and the second this year.I have spend the last month planning and perfecting my two little ones fourth of july outfits.. I planned each event and each outfit together.we had planned two ... then I spent the last few days tweaking and re-working my schedule and such. Well yesterday I got thrown a loop... my mom didn't have  a way to get there because her tags were expired and she had yet to get them fixed.. I thought oh no biggie we have a mini caravan going so we should be able to find a ride in one of the three cars... what I thought was no biggie caused me to re-evaluate my life and the people in it. Jason my husband wanted to ride Tynison me and him together( my daughter already had a ride) and my mom his mom and sister could ride together.. when my mom got here I quickly scooped the kiddos up and went to take pictures... hairstyle never lasts long for a 2 year old! off we went to take pictures. Time escaped me when Jasons mom pulled up- we went to load up and his mom looked right at me and said are you riding with us.. I said oh... sure that's fine.. then got a look from Jason before he quickly stomped back to his moms car dissappointment number one. I could tell he was angry but what he failed to realize I wasn' t happy either.. I think during all this he lost sight of this. So my mom ended up with me driving and tyn in between us.. Jasons mom pulled out of the driveway and unbeknownst to me was waiting for me to pull out... I thought I lost my wallet and was looking for it when ALAS found! so I go to back up and I see Jasons mom pulling back in followed by flashing blue lights!! she was being pulled over!! guess what for expired tags... fancy that..lol.. well the cop went on and we all left for the fireworks at our church. On the way there we stopped to get Burgundy a few sparklers and such. I got out and my mom got out... which left me to carry the 30 lb baby and seat- so my quiet peaceful sleeping baby is abruptly wakened by my weakness and inability to hold the carseat straight:( when Jason sitting not three cars down could have came and sat with him.. he didn't he sat in his moms car and stewed dissappointment number two.. We loaded back up and were off again... once we got to the church Jasons mom parked and I saw Jason head down the road toward the church. Was he really leaving me to get the wagon blankets cooler stroller and baby and baby bag together and walk it all myself? Yes he was dissappointment number three. oh but wait! here he came back.. oh but to take the baby- not the bags or stroller just the baby. dissappointment number four. So me and my mom left to carry all this stuff- all the way fending comments on wheres the baby?! My comment in my head I push this for fun..my comment aloud hahahah... i know right:)  trying not to let Jasons mood damper my own. So we finally find Jason and his family now to find Burgundy. I wondered around for what seemed like half an hour when Jasons mom suggested we go inside to see if they were in there- AH! brilliant!! and guess what they were! so fast forward a little farther in.. everyone comes inside- everyone is complaining about why we came so early.. first off thats when the pastor said it started was 5 second it was almost 7 at this point thirdly Burgundy was having a blast and it was way worth it to see her smile.. and fourth its about family for me..so time where we don't have to worry about housework, stress, chores.. nothing just straight honest good family time.. but to be honest I think I would have rather been a part of a different family that day.  At this point me husband had told me I couldn;t sit by him and said he was finsihed... so humiliated and degraded in front of everyone because of a 5-10 min drive. dissappointment number five. Everyone talked and the rest of the evening went well.. all except me and Jason.. Jason talked to everyone except me.. his wife. so instead of being cuddled up with my hubby and kiddos.. I was passing each kiddo around during fireworks.. dissappointment number six. The best thing that happened all night was seeing the light of the fireworks reflect in my angels eyes! She looked beautiful.. and the wonder in Tynisons eyes I wonder what he was thinking?! All of this over that little car ride. Yes I understand that it could have a should have been handled differently but what was done was done and it wasn't going to be changed... so in my world once we got to church that should have been the end of it...but it wasn't my favorite holiday tainted by a silly 5 min ride. He thinks he was the only one hurt but 24 hours later and its still affecting me. When we got home I sat and cuddled our little girl to sleep and he cuddled our little boy to sleep. We didn't say anything. I firmly believe that it is NOT ok to go to bed angry. He doesn't. So that left me thinking all night.. and me and thinking not so good. There were points I cried over our silly fights times I was so mad I could have thrown all his stuff off the balcony and even a point where I wanted to wake him up and hug him. He slept like a giant rock. I bet he didn't even give this fight another thought. Got up this morning and he acted like nothing ever happened.. here I was going through everything under the sun.. and he kissed me! how dare!!! Trivial I know. We went about for awhile just fine when it was time to go to my moms for lunch.. he said he has a headache.. does he not think there are times when I have headaches that I don't want to do something..?!This is our sons first fourth, our stolen day from work and life and he spent it away .... worst fourth ever! so here we are laying in bed.. just fine. What tom. bringings.. normality.